Girl with a Red Book framed
Looking through the pages of this life so filled with dirt and mystery. I can’t help but often feel lost. As I get older I am convinced that the feeling of being lost is something like being out in deep water. I cling to the hope that I don’t need to figure out everything that is going on in my life but simply trust that God is working his loom and I am simply one of the threads being woven into something lovely and useful.
As winter begins to show some signs of letting go and the sun makes another brave appearance I can feel a softening in the soil of my heart. I would love to have a spring of my own where some of what I though for sure was dead began to show signs of life. New songs, sold paintings, laughter, baby bunnies, a love poem, a bird nest that smells like hay and moist soil….
February 25th, 2010 at 4:15 pm
The frame is PERFECT for the painting.
And I also am glad for the few signs that spring might come.
July 9th, 2010 at 8:12 pm
Hello Mr. Beerhorst. I thought I’d introduce myself and was looking for an entry with which I connected. This one fit.
I discovered you through “An Illustrated Life,” a book I purchased in order to help me find my own way through the mess of this artistic life. Reading your words made me wonder if you were a person of faith. One of your (bravely scanned) journal pages confirmed that we do in fact serve the same God.
I have a lot of things not figured out. I work in Baltimore city with at-risk kids but have a nagging feeling that I myself need to create. (And not just “on the side”.) I don’t know if what I have to offer as an artist has any more validity or power than the work I already do (which makes the whole notion of calling very difficult just now). There aren’t a lot of people who are recognized artists with genuine Christian faith to look to as mentors. If there’s an underground crowd out there somewhere, I’d love to find my way into the mix.
Anyway, thank you for putting your faith out there in print for all to see. That is not an easy thing to do and you did so with grace. I will be watching your RSS through my livejournal. If you have any curiosity about the art behind the confused artist, you can find it on http://www.redbubble.com/people/sadeyedartist or http://sadeyedartist.tumblr.com/. I apologize for the random internet “stalking” but you can rest assured that I won’t be in Michigan anytime soon. God bless.